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Anonymous asked: you never really got over sena did you
you really dont know me
Mr. Joe Brooks here @bbriannwalshh (Taken with instagram)
I’m not some fucking sob story, or some kicked puppy that needs some time, love and care, to get back on its feet, stop using me only to ease that insecurity about the type of person you really are or to feed your dillusions about that “perfect boyfriend” or true love. Its just pathetic, you think you can change me, fuck you, there’s nothing needing change, I am who i am because i want to be, ill pay for the consequences as they come
My biggest fear is being alone, i cant stand it, im so dependent on being surrounded by people, this insecurity of mine is something ill finally acknowledge and its killing me, isolation brings out the worst in me, i dont know why. I can read others like books, but when it comes to my own emotions, wants, needs i might as well be blind. To my close friends i say im in love with a certain someone, but in reality i dont know if i am. Everything went to shit once we ended things, but lets face it that’s just hindsight for you. I realize now looking back i fell, i didnt know my peak till i toppled from it, that feeling of security and friendship, love and respect that i realized ive taken for granted. I’m broken and discouraged from attempting to achieve that state or someone again because lets face it, once you know the pain of investing emotion in something just to have it all go to waste is one thats hard to recover from, let alone set yourself up for. I went from being a risk taker to someone just on the sidelines, a bystander afraid to say whats needed, someone before i would’ve pitied before, how far ive fallen in my own eyes is unknown, how much more to come wouldn’t surprise, as to my knowledge up to this point, ive been dragging along the bottom for awhile now with no end in sight.
Anonymous asked: you are so DETACHED from your emotions it's sad :(
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